okay this MIGHT be a pointless journal but bear with me
I've noticed that all my usual ocs, except two, are female. And even then, the two male ocs (Salix the deer I never use and Ollie the orca) are children. Hell I just made my first non child male oc and I'm not even sure how "male" he really is.
Why is this bothering me and why does this matter?
I don't really know. But I never really had any close female friends growing up.. even now I have maybe one or two girls that I talk to. But I spend almost all my spare time with male friends. Not only cis male friends, but transgender males as well. My best friends growing up were boys. Even now, I basically only spend the night over at my guy friend's house (with a total of 3 boys there).
So why why WHY do I always make my characters female? Am I making up for the fact I'm not feminine myself? Am I substituting my lack of girl friends in person with cartoons? Is this some weird way of letting me be myself without showing it to others? (Edit) AM I SECRETLY A RAGING LESBIAN (well no but I guess I'm not[i] too[/i] straight either)
Ugh I'm getting all psychological, I'm so sorry guys. My brain's in a weird place... I just wanted to type this out partially for my sake of running my thoughts around.
Do you guys ever feel these kind of weird vibes with your ocs..?